Love...

Yes, today's post is going to be boring, not funny, not entertaining, but just some of my thoughts on the subject of love. I know that I'm the least likely to be fit to talk about the subject, a few screwed up shitty relationships here and there but just penning down my thoughts so when i read this next time I'll go like, " Whoa chim =)!"

Yes, love... Some adults say that when you have a crush in school it's not love, don't fall too deep into it. I think that sentence should be corrected a little. To me, anyone has the capacity to love, regardless of age. The thing that serves as a variable in love is simple the extent of love, the depth of your emotional attachment.

Love is quite a magical thing isn't it? It's almost the composition of happiness, bliss, all the things that make you glad... In relationships, there are always these moments of pure excitement, those things that make your life special and most memorable. The memories able to bond two people so closely together. Definitely you will treasure those once-in-a-lifetime moments, no regrets.

And yet I for one always distance myself from any girl that I happen to like now, it is so difficult isn't it. If she doesn't like you then at least you aren't that close, you don't feel your heart breaking like a million knives have pierced through it. The term heart-wrench is most appropriate for those truly suffering from heart break. Even if you emotionally distance yourself, sometimes the pain is inevitable.

I don't know, but I guess it's because of the fear of rejection? But I've seen a fair few relationships gone *BAM* just like that. At this age, I probably shouldn't be planning long term, because the relationship is likely not to last long. Sure there are exceptions but I think if I ever can get into one, let's just take it as it goes. I too, desire to have the experience but I just can't pull it off I guess.

Sometimes, you simply like the person but do not dare tell him/her right to the face. You hold in your emotions for a long time, simply giving hints or through actions. Just tell him/her straight to the face, it's 50-50 chance anyway. Of course, don't do this when the person obviously doesn't like you or you're asking for a punch in the face. But pull it off, though difficult it may be, and it will be rewarding. You will feel liberated from your emotional suppression, like jolts of electricity feeling through your body. I think we call that ecstasy.

In the end, love is just a double edged sword, with the power to hurt and the power to heal. It all depends on the wielder, how one handles the issue of love. Yeah, I'm not the best person to talk about this but these are just my reflections on the topic. Basically it's for my own reference to see if my thoughts change throughout the years...